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Why does a guy breaks his own promise?

I prompt myself this question, and I still couldn't understand. Take my dad. He's the one who made me prompt that question.
What for doing so many things when in the end I don't get anything in return?

Where's my floorball stick when he promised half year ago? When he really promised?

He, is just taking advantage of the promise. Making me do so many things, threatening me with the stick, but yet. NOTHING GAINS.

it's been half a year, goodness. Half a year. I hate it when people break their promise, especially those whom are really close to me. really someone whom I trust. I really hate it.

In financial wise, he can afford it at any cost, and I don't give a damn. what's his problem then? What the fcuk does he want? He wants academic, I give him. He demands this, I tried very hard just because of the stick?

every single time I told him I wanted the stick because it was a need, but nooooooo. He said he would buy after he comes back from his stupid business trip.

Every business trip, he never ask me to see the sticks. half a year, more than 10 business trips. Has he really given his everything to the family? And when I get what I want, they always say I get complacent and don't do what I'm supposed to do.

but a few days later, I still did what I'm supposed to do! It's only the matter of time. I don't know why do adults think that they cannot wait? Whenever I say wait, they will say do it now. Whenever I tell my dad to be quick , he told me to wait. Isn't that irony? whatthefuck.

Where were all the overseas trips that you promised us? Hong Kong, Taiwan etc. you've been talking about it for months, saying that we should go as a family. in the end?

Only my dad and mom. What fuck is this. and they count it as one already. Why, do my dad have to care so much where we are when he don't give a damn now? He always comes home late, sleeps till very late during weekends, and never tries to get family bond? I hate my dad.

Sometimes I felt that my dad's an outsider, someone who just gives money to the family, for food, clothing, shelter, schooling. They always think wrongly, think the opposite of me.

What I want, to them is what I need. What I need, to them is what I want. I need a stick. I want a new bag.

Although both are materialistic wants, but people said you should satisfy your need first. I have like tons of bags, why bother to buy more if the money can be used to buy a stick? faggard.

I'm really sick of all these nonsense, plus all the crap in the class. arghhhhhh. I hate it. fuck.

I never got a compliment from him before. Never once. Whatever I've done, is always wrong for them. What's wrong with joining outside bands?

What's wrong with failing maths at the start of sec 3? What's wrong with having two ccas? I have two ccas. Band - I can't quit, unless my points won't go *poof*. Floorball - that's what I really love. But they said having band is enough, I don't see the satisfactory answer.

When my mid year results were out, they were whining all the way. But in the first place, did they ever thought of me? The stupid stuff that I have to do at home, what crap houseworks that give unneccessary burdens, new subjects?

My dad even told me, if I have any doubt I can look for him. But it was no use. He couldn't solve any. What's the point. Adding in the fact that he comes home very late at night. all he does was keep bullshitting how great his acacdemics was, blahblahblah shit.

I'll be like: daddy can you teach me how to solve this question? He'll be like: uhm, let me see. *after reading the question* maybe you should do it yourself.

I have no one else to consult to - my brother's maths isn't up to standard, my mom didn't take add math in the first place, my younger brother = sec 1. no point.

When I have to go for Mavis for maths, they were whining at where the money was wasted. Like fuck. in the first place, nobody helped me!

And the days before exams were horrible. kkbps broke promises, he was a total motherfucker.

It took me almost a month for me to make him a crap shit. guess what he said. He said I was a total failure, someone who cannot control the class, and blames all the fault on me when the other monitor does nothing - he goes around playing games.

Its so demoralising. I've never felt so hurt before. No word of encouragement instead. All total crap. I suddenly hate the world.

I wanna turn off. I don't wanna face shits again.

Save me from these misery, God please.

1. The person that passed me this quiz is?
Geraldine Pang

2. Your relatioship with him/her is?
Senior Junior/School mates/ floorball mates/friends

3. Your five impression of him/her?
super innocent
quiet
outgoing
high
emo at times

.4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Helping me out for Floorball camp!

5. The most memorable thing he has said to you?
OMG I love you.

6. If he/she dies,you will?
cry lol.

7. If he/she becomes your lover you will?
erm she's got her crush. LOL and I don't want to be a lesbian.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
haha,\. Kill her!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
She's the EXCO 2010

10. The most desired thing you wanna do for him is?
Talk more to her!

11. Your overall impression of him is?
Fun to be with.

12. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
HGL, crazy.

13. The characters i love about myself are?
Cheerful !

14. On the contrary, what are the characters you hate about yourself?
Calefare, lazy. attitude?

15. The most ideal person i want to be with is?
ey erm ha let me digest.

16. What do you have to say to the people who care, concern and love you?
Love you to the max xoxo.

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